You know as the new year rings in, and we all get excited about things to come, I am looking back and pondering...
Our church is doing a "Daniel Fast" which in itself is difficult to explain, but as for now it is cutting out meats, sweets, and wheat's out of my diet for 21 days. I know your what you're thinking this is what the scriptures say,
8 But Daniel resolved not to defile himself with the royal food and wine, and he asked the chief official for permission not to defile himself this way. 9 Now God had caused the official to show favor and compassion to Daniel, 10 but the official told Daniel, “I am afraid of my lord the king, who has assigned your[c] food and drink. Why should he see you looking worse than the other young men your age? The king would then have my head because of you.”
11 Daniel then said to the guard whom the chief official had appointed over Daniel, Hananiah, Mishael and Azariah, 12 “Please test your servants for ten days: Give us nothing but vegetables to eat and water to drink.
I know this may seem strange, but it is what we have been called to do. I somehow don't want to get caught up in the "religiousness" of a fast. In case you aren't familiarr, or don't know a fast is where you "give up something" that is important to you, in this case (and biblical ones) food.
This was my revelation today...
It was about 1 p.m. I wasn't hungry. Normally about this time I would drive to McDonald's, grab a burger, fries and a coke (maybe a cookie) and chow down. I am almost NEVER hungry when I eat lunch, I just do it, well, because it's lunch time. I eat until I feel so full that I'm sick, because it is habit. Really it's gross! So today, instead of eating, I prayed. I asked God to reveal to me why I didn't feel the need to eat, and seek some guidance on this aspect of my life.
This is what was revealed...
Eating when I am not hungry is like going to Church on Sunday, just because it's Sunday. It's a habit, a ritual that I perform at a certain time on a certain day. It has no meaning...no feeling...no reason, I do it because I am a creature of habit!
I was like WHOA! So I questioned my motives behind going to church. I go to church because I'm a pastors wife..yes...because I am a worship leader...yes...but I supposed my motives aren't always pure. I'll admit I go sometimes because I have too...and THAT my friends is not okay.
So my goal for this week is to seek out God and what his plans for me as a pastor's wife and worship leader are. So that when I walk into church it is because I have been dying to get there, and not because "it's time"
Ponder that dear readers...What is your motivation behind what you do? Is it routine? Or are you doing it because that is what you really need to do?
Love to all!